me worrying much

let me just take a break from writing about him.. its my turn now..

emm.. sometimes.. Im afraid.. that.. I would just live in a short period of life.. and I often thought that maybe I was destined for that..

ya see.. I got something at my back.. I discovered it early this year.. and it is small at the early year.. I thought it was just nothing.. but then its spreading.. I want to have a check up.. but I didnt.. Im afraid of what will happen if I did..

I hope it is nothing serious..

perhaps Im gonna go see the doctor next week..

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